So today was not a good day.
I just thought I would clarify in case it wasn’t clear from the title of this post.
I am *really* behind in my blogging, but I wanted to get this post out today, because I am struggling. I’m sure some of those draft posts would fill in the blanks about everything that has been going on, but today…today was the day I considered re-enrolling Butterfly in public school.
Is it because she fights learning every single day? Or because one of us has to ask the other for a re-do (every single day)? Or that we both stated to my husband that “this wasn’t what we thought it would be” (separately)?
I think I am struggling because I have realized that she doesn’t want any version of school at all. And that I can’t support that or make it happen.
I get that some people can un-school their kids and that they are confident that it will work out. But that’s not our situation.
We’re on a budget of time and money, and I feel the pressure of knowing that I have to get her to a certain point, or she’ll fall even further behind (this is where I should mention that this is the week that I discovered that she has never understood what people were talking about when they said “even” and “odd” numbers) and she doesn’t have the internal drive to catch up.
So, after the kids went to bed tonight, and hubby was firmly tucked away on the couch and I was left to my own devices, I came in my room and typed “feel like I am failing at homeschooling” into Google.
Good news/bad news – I am not alone.
One post gave me some things to ponder – I’ll let you know where I come out on it: http://www.lifeingraceblog.com/2012/09/why-i-almost-gave-up-homeschooling/